What I Wish I Had the Guts to say to Him…

Dad,

You are an abuser
You abused me, mom, sister, pets
You neglected me
You ripped my heart and soul apart
You lied to me
You controlled me
You caused me to live in a terrified state my entire life, and still to this day
You are dangerous
You abuse mom
You’ve broken mom, and don’t think I don’t see it
You’ve threatened her life
You turned a blind eye to my pain
You didn’t protect me
You taught me that being used by men was normal
You caused me to sink
You use Christianity to justify your abuse, that’s not Christianity, its abuse
You drove me to other abusers and rapists
You taught me that saying “no” was dangerous
You taught me that I was a burden
You taught me that my feelings didn’t matter, and would mostly get me in trouble.
You taught me I could not think for myself or make my own choices/they would be no good/I was no good
You taught me that I’m not good enough, and never would be
You are a narcissist
You are the reason I have to spend years in therapy to undo the brainwashing you instilled
You are the reason I live with PTSD and BDD
You are missing out on me
You blame/ed me for everything
You won’t look at you
You taught me that “love” was control and control is love
You need help that I know you will never get
You cause me many,many tears of pain, because I need a father
You missed out on our first home, but that hurt me too.
You taught me I was UN-loveable and ugly
You will never know the real me

WHAT I’M LEARNING SINCE I ESCAPED YOU

What would you like to say to your abuser/s?

THERE IS HOPE.

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